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This Is The Reason Why We Must Be Brave To Say "I Love You"

Kenapa judul diatas seperti itu? Well, mendingan langsung baca aja ya cerita dibawah ini T__T

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Bersua ria dengan si Raja Stalker---> Faris Katili (sebut saja namanya Faris atau Katil)

Vira : Eh ris gue tebak nih

Vira : Pasti lu lagi stalkerin org ye? wakakaka

Faris : Kagak sih cuma lagi chat sama browser 2 tab

Vira : wakakaka kirain -_---

beberapa menit kemudian......

Faris : Tapi iya sih 2 tabnya isinya profile orang

Faris : -___-

Vira : Ba! ketauan kannnn HAHAHAHA

Happy Holiday, folks!

xoxo,

R. Octavira

I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About - Mayday Parade

And we both go down together
we'd stay there forever
just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
and never let go

well i'm thinking of the worst things
that i could say to you
but a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

i could only sing you sad songs
and you could sing along
and you could see the melody
that's been calling out your wrongs
and this never will be right with me
and now you're trying to desperately
but i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
but i never told you everything
i'm losing hope and fading dreams
and every single memory along the way

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

and we both go down together
and stay there forever
just try to get up

and then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
i'll just try to get up
and i'm sorry
this wasn't easy
when i asked you, believe me
you never let go
but i let go

"Ayo berani dong, Vir!"

..................

#nowFeeling......

Hmmmmmmmmm :/

Aci Firsilla!!!!

BA! HALO SEMUA! Postingan gue kali ini khusus gue dedikasikan buat temen gue nih, namanya Aci. Doi abis ulang tahun pas 30 November kemaren. Ulang tahun yang keberapa taun ci? 61 ya? HEEE yagakdong -_- 16 lah. Nah, tadi siang, gue sama temen2x gue bikin surprise kecil-kecilan buat si imudh ini.

Sebenernya ini tuh di skenarioin gitu, ceritanya, si Aci kan emang ikut susulan math dan fisika kan, nah pas dia lagi ngerjain susulan di lab inter, kita semua nyiapin surprisenya gitu. Lilin nya, kuenya, dan lain-lain.

Nah pembagian tugasnya tuh, Gue sama Deya nungguin Aci di lab inter, Bella dan Ayu dikelas siap-siap nyalain lilin, pas Aci selese susulan, Deya capcus pura-pura ngajak Aci ke toilet, dan gue seketika itu juga lari ke kelas buat ngasih tau ke yang lain untuk siap-siap ngagetin aci didepan kelas. Ketika Aci dan Deya balik dari toilet dan menuju ke kelas, langsung deh.......

Aci : *buka pintu*

Semuanya : "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ACI!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!"

Aci : "AAAA demi apa?????!?!? AAAA makasih!!!!"

yaudah deh abis itu dia loncat-loncat kegirangan sampe 78 roboh -_-

Nah abis itu, tiup lilin gitu2x deh. Kali ini kita kasih kuenya beda, kita kasih dia Kue Sushi (re: kumpulan sushi-sushi yang disusun sedemikian rupa menyerupai kue tart walaupun sedikit gagal -_-)

Kenapa Kue Sushi? Karna dia ini adalah penggemar berat Sushi dan hal-hal yang berbau dengan makanan laut. Dia sangat cinta dengan Sushi. Sampe-sampe dia pasang background formspring dia aja pake gambar Sushi -___-''

Oh iya, ada sedikit cerita pas kita lagi nelfon Delivery Sushi Groove nya, sebenernya kita udh nelfon dari hari selasa, cuma.....ya gitu deh.....-_-

Selasa-

Bella : "halo? dengan Sushi Groove Taman Anggrek?"

Pegawai : "iya benar sekali, ada yang bisa kami bantu?"

Bella : "Mbak mau tanya dong, kalo pemesanan dengan........*blablablabla*"

Pegawai : .....................*diem*

Bella : "Halo? halo mas?"

Pegawai : .................*hening*

Ayu : "bel sini aja deh gue yang ngomong"

Bella : "Nih (ngasih hp ke Ayu)."

Ayu : "Halo mas? mau tanya dong.........."

Pegawai : "HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHA HAHAHAH HAHAHAHA" (tiba-tiba ngakak)

Ayu : "Hah kenapa nih? yaudah saya telfon lain kali ya. Terima kasih (langsung tutup telfon)"

Karna telfon yang pertama gagal, ahirnya kita coba konfirmasi lagi di hari jumat nya. Dan ini lebih aneh lagi, walaupun ahirnya berhasil mesen sih.

Jumat-

Ayu (A) : "Halo dengan Sushi Groove Taman Anggrek?"

Pegawai (P) : "Iya, ada yang bisa kami bantu?" (kenapa pink -_-)

A : "Iya mbak, gini.....EH......eh ini Mbak atau Mas sih?"

P : "saya cewek mbak (mungkin gini kali ya pembicaraan di telfon), mau pesan apa?"

A : "oohhh (rada bingung) yaudah, mbak saya mau *blablablablabla*"

P : "Ntar dikirim kemana? Mau diantar jam berapa?"

A : "Di SMA 78 di Kemanggisan, *blablablabla*"

P : "Oh yasudah, ditunggu ya. Sushi nya nyampe jam 12. Ntar yang nganter sushi nya perempuan ya"

A : "Iya oke terima kasih"

Udah jam 12. Gue sama Ayu keluar buat ngambil Sushi, si mbak-mbak (ngaku-ngakunya sih mbak-mbak) yang nganter udah di depan sekolah, pas dia buka helm, HNGGGGGG KITA KAGETTTTT!!! Bingung, ini orang cewek apa cowok sih? Keliatannya sih dia itu cowok tapi pake bedak tebel gitu, tp gue masih rada ragu-ragu dikit, eh pas dia ngomong........

"Kembaliannya 20 sekian ya. Bener gak? coba check lagi deh"

Ternyata bener. Dia itu bencong. Hissssssss kaget banget gue -___-

Aci dan Sushi -_-''

Yaa pokoknya kurang lebih seperti itu lah yaa kejadiannya hehehe gimana ci? seneng gak? Pasti seneng dong hehehe sekali lagi, Happy 16th Birthday ya ciiiiiiiiiii!!!! :D :D Semoga semua keinginan lo, semua harapan lo di tahun ini bisa terkabul, makin gede harus makin dewasa, makin sayang orang tua, makin sayang temen-temen lo yaa hehehe, udh gitu apa lagi ya? hmmm oh iya! semoga lo bisa diterima di Fakultas Seni rupa ITB/Arsitektur UI ya ci :) ;) AMIN!!!! Semoga As Level lulus dengan nilai yang memuaskan. Amin banget. Have a Blast ya bayi ^^

We ♥ You, The Queen of Montreal!!!

The Silence of The World

Hello Stranger~

Hello pals :) i'm currently blogging in my class. Luckily, the internet connection is super fast as fast as wind -_- so the fact is, today is Monday. The routinity is started today, such as: School, quizzes, homework, retake and blahblahblah. Well, all i can say is:

"Have a nice day, everyone!"

This is what i called "A True Love"

Hello fellas! Gue punya cerita pendek nih, gue dapet dr tumblr. Ceritanya sedih deh, sediiiiiiiih bgt :'( langsung baca aja yaaaa. Enjoy :)

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.

Girl: Ricardo, what do you mean?

Boy: Something has come up…

Girl: What? What’s wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: I don’t want to hurt you, baby.

Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesn’t break up with me… I love him so much.

Boy: Baby, are you there?

Girl: Yeah, I’m here. What is so important?

Boy: I’m not sure if I should say it..

Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: I’m leaving..

Girl: Baby, what are you talking about? I don’t want you to leave me, I love you.

Boy: Not like that, I mean I’m moving far away.

Girl: Why? All of your family lives over here.

Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.

Girl: I can’t believe this.

Father: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERICA! What did I tell you about talking to boys?! Get off the damn phone! (And hangs up)

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.

Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I don’t want you to go.

Boy: Would you run away with me?

Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can’t… You don’t know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It’s okay.. I understand, I guess..

Girl: *Thinking* I can’t believe what’s going on.

Boy: I need to give you something tonight, because I am leaving on flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.

Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.

Boy: Okay, I’ll meet you there in 20 minutes.

(They meet at a nearby park, they both hug each other. And he gives her a note.)

Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.

Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)

Boy: Baby, don’t cry, you know I love you… But I have to go.

Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

(They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her)

It says…

“Erica,

You probably already know that I’m leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and don’t you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I’m leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the right thing, and you were never there. I didn’t think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that’s a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch… Goodbye.

- Ricardo”

( Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in the garbage & cries for hours. )

… A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely… Then she gets a phone call….

Friend: How are you feeling?

Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.

Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something…

Girl: Umm.. okay.

(She finds a piece of paper in the jacket.)

It says:

“Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words…

Hate = Love

Never = Always

Bitch = Baby

Will not = will

…. I hope you didn’t take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me… -Ricardo”

Girl: Oh my God! It’s a letter.. Ricardo does love me! He must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can’t believe how stupid I am!

( Erica turns the TV on. )

[Breaking news]

“An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors… This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80… it was on its way to an all boys boarding school…” the Reporter says.

( She turns off the t.v. … 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for… )

… A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. “Its Ricardo, I guess you’re not home so, I called to let you know that I’m alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good."

Hope you like it :)

Thankies,

Vira

where the hell is he......

Last night, i accidentally woke up at 2 and i was scared. My dream was bad.

In my dream, i walked alone in a city full of darkness. I guessed no one people who lived there, but i was wrong, cause suddenly there was a boy who yelled my name. When i looked behind, i was so surprised, the boy was behind me, and he greeted me. He knew my name, but i didn't know who he was.

He looked handsome, he seemed older than me. He said "where are u going?" but i didnt answer his question, cuz i didnt know where i was. I saw his face, he was sweating everywhere. He looked panic. I thought, he was on danger situation. I said "why are you sweating?" then he told me about his trouble.

Unfortunately, i didnt hear him clearly. He spoke as fast as sound wave and as much as people inhale their breath. I understood nothing. I just saw his face. He looked tired and scared. Finally, he finished telling his story, then he asked me "could you please help me? i'm overwhelmed to figure this trouble out." I said "what help?" he suddenly mad at me. "ive told you!!!!! all of em!" and i said "i'm sorry, i didnt hear you"

He was angry and he cried. When he was crying, i found out a piece of tissue, then i wiped his tears away and i apologized to him. He stopped crying and he said "would you wanna live with me forever?" Yet, when i was trying to answer his petition, he suddenly dissapeared. He didnt come back anymore.

Thats all about what happened in my dream. It was a bit random i think. Anyway, Thank you for reading fellas :)

Love,

Vira

hehehehe gombal dikit boleh lah :p

Semua ini gara-gara Biology -_-

Halo halo readers!

Hoah udah malem nih, sebenernya sih gue ngantuk. Bgt -_- pas udah mau off semuanya, fb, msn, twitter, eh si minaco tiba2x sapa gue di fb :

"JANGAN LUPA KERJAIN PRESENTASI BIO! CEPETAN KIRIM FILE NYA KE EMAIL GUE!"

Yeeeeeh gak jadi tidur deh =_= yaudah akhirnya, sekarang gue lagi nyari2x bahan buat presentasi. Rada takut sih, soalnya gue harus nyari2x bahan tentang Mouth/Oral Cancer termasuk nyelipin beberapa gambar di presentasi nya. HSHSHSHSHSHS gue merinding banget woy liat gambar-gambarnya zzz

5 gambar aja cukup kan? WOAHHHHH gue ngeliatnya aja sampe ngelus2x dada -_- eh sebelumnya, maaf ya buat yang lagi makan T_T kalo jijik ngeliat postingan gue yang ini, silahkan close aja heheh

Yaa pokoknya gitu deh, dan sekarang gue ngantuk. Udahan dulu ya, Goodnight fellas! have a nice weekend! :D :D

Love,

R. Octavira

Miss a lot of things!

Ya seperti judul gue diatas, gue merindukan semuanya :'(

Yang pertama, tadi pagi gue shuffle iTunes gue dan tiba-tiba ke puter lagunya Taylor Swift-You belong with me. Gak tau kenapa tiba-tiba gue jadi kangen banget nget nget sm lagu itu, yaa wajarlah ya secara gue udah ada kali 5ribu taun gak pernah dengerin lagu itu lagi *lebe* dan abis itu gue check movies iTunes dan ternyata gue nyimpen video clipnya Taylor Swift yang itu. Yaudah deh gue puter aja videonya dan gue repeat terus :'( . Dan....HAAA ternyata gue kangen banget sama Lucas Till. Lucas. Lucas. Lucas. Udah lamaaa banget gak pernah ngeliat muka dia lagi, kebanyakan korea-an mulu sih -______-

~Lucas Till♥♥♥♥♥~

ya, adegan yang ini hati gue agak bolong sedikit >.<

"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me"

Terus yang kedua, yaaa mulai lagi deh nih ke korea-korea an :p hehehe gue lagi kangen banget nih sama drama korea yaitu "Boys Before Flowers" ha ha ha aduh tuh drama bener-bener berhasil bikin jantung gue copot deh......heran banget 0_0 mau nonton drama ini sampe 1000 kali juga gak bakal bosen deh kayaknya -_- padahal dulu gue samaaaa sekali gak suka korea. Sama sekali. Tapi gara-gara ada beberapa oknum yang telah meracuni gue buat suka korea-korea an, yaa jadinya jadi kecemplung deh di dunia korean -_- oke lanjut aja ya nih gue kasih cuplikan adegan mereka:

Dan........ini yang paling klimaks deh kayaknya. Setelah 4 tahun mereka pisah, si Goo Jun Pyo ke Amerika dan Jandi ngelanjutin kuliah kedokteran di Korea, dan ahirnya Goo Jun Pyo pulang ke Korea, dan langsung ngelamar Jandi......

0_0

Yaampun, kenapa ya mereka sweet banget T_T sampe sedih ngeliatnya :'( hm oh iya! sebenernya sih gue lebih kangen sama soundtrack2x nya ketimbang dramanya. Lagu2xnya tuh bener-bener bikin sedih deh, yaa walaupun gue gak ngerti sama sekali artinya apa, tapi tetep aja sedih :'((((( tapi ada juga sih yang enak. Nih beberapa soundtracknya ya!

Lucky:

Eonjena i-reoke useoyo na~ sesangi himdeulge haedo nan jeoldae

Nunmureun bo-igo sipjin anchyo~ nae mameul moreuneun geudaerado-
Meolliseo-rado geudaeui geu misoreul ganjikhalsuisseo dahaengijyo

Stand By Me:

together make it love, forever make it your smile, nuh eh hwanhan miso gadeukhi
together make it love, forever make it your smile, ijeh neh soneul neh soneul jaba

stand by me naleul balabajo ajik sarangeul mo leuh jiman, stand by me naleul jikyuhbajo ajik sarangeh suhtoon gut gatta

terus masih ada banyak lagi deh!!! Because i'm stupid, ALMOST PARADISE!, one more time, WISH YOU'RE MY LOVE, Fight at the bad feeling dan lain lain. Gue males ngetikinnya, banyak banget -____-

Terus selanjutnya, gue kangen temen-temen sekelas gue :'( pengen banget ketemuan sama mereka, tapi pada gak bisa. Ada yang mudik lah, itu lah, ini lah, dll. -_- jadi keinget dulu pas masa-masa ujian igcse, kita semua saling tolong menolong, ngajarin satu sama lain, yang bisa ngajarin yang gak bisa. Bener-bener serius belajar, tapi kalo di sekolah :p. Nah pas udah dirumah, niatnya sih pengen belajar bareng di room MSN, eh tapi bukannya belajar malah.....curhat lah, becanda lah, malah jadi ngobrol =______=.

HMMM terus kangen siapa lagi ya? *pura-pura gak tau* hmmmm ya gitu deh hehehe aku kangen si *beep* :p :p yaa tapi gimana ya, udah kebiasaan kangen sih, jadinya malah jadi biasa aja wkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk udah ah. Rahasia. :p :p :p

Udah dulu ya! laper bgt nih pengen makan :3 bye bye semuanya!! Happy Holiday <3